Tuesday, September 7, 2010
Another day in my frighten mind
Why am I so afraid of my grilfriend doing the same shit she did last year? As soon as College started again, I can't help but think that something WILL happen again. That fear has me so paranoid that when ever she isn't talking or with me during her break times i automatically start thinking negative about her. I fucking hate this shit. I don't want to be like this. But at the same time, I don't want to be blind sighten again.. I want to fall in her arms and have her inbrace me. But i'm to much of a coward to commit myself to that. I've been hurt before and i feel like a fucking dog To afraid to actually do or have her "pet" me in a way. I need to figure something out before it's too late.