Friday, September 17, 2010

Working out and losing weight!

I began to work out a whilea go. It's hard trying to lose weight when I tend to eat a lot. Or just junk food.  How can I lose weight if I eat junk food! I need to figure out a way to stop eating so much. I don't even want to weight myself. I don't know but usually when i bend over my whole gut shows, yet when I'm standing it doesn't really show. WTF?  I hate that :(

Thursday, September 16, 2010

College sucks balls

I have no idea what I'm doing.  I can't decide whether to be a linguistics major, or a lawyer. Either sound like shit, but I want to pick something already.  Not only that but my girlfriends birthday is coming up.  This monday. I wanted to make her something special and awesome. BUT here is the shitty part. I 've been to busy and tired from Classes to try and do anything.  We were talking a few nights ago and she mentioned she use to play street fighter 2 and mortal kombat 2 for the snes when she was younger with a friend o hers. She no longer is friends with them and no longer has that game. She remembers it and misses it. SO i wanted to ind it. I'm trading it with some bastard on some trading game site. So far it's been over 5 days and nothing!  I also want to make her a cake. I bought her a little cow pillow this morning. Haven't showed it to her.  There was so much I wanted to get her.  Not  a lot..Just a few things.  But I forgot my money at home.  So I'm all damn!  Sucks man.  I just hope I have everything ready for Monday!  She and her friend were planning on renting a really crappy hotel and watching hentai...Yeah.  She's like that :P  Though she and her friend got into an arguement.  So I don't know if they are still talking or going to do that.  Anyways, I'm done for now.

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Another day in my frighten mind

Why am I so afraid of my grilfriend doing the same shit she did last year?  As soon as College started again, I can't help but think that something WILL happen again.  That fear has me so paranoid that when ever she isn't talking or with me during her break times i automatically start thinking negative about her.  I fucking hate this shit.  I don't want to be like this.  But at the same time, I don't want to be blind sighten again.. I want to fall in her arms and have her inbrace me.  But i'm to much of a coward to commit myself to that.  I've been hurt before and i feel like a fucking dog To afraid to actually do or have her "pet" me in a way.  I need to figure something out before it's too late.

Sunday, September 5, 2010

Being too afraid to actually trust someone

Man, I hate not being able to trust my girlfriend.  I assume she will run at the first chance she gets.  I hate that feeling.  Something similar has happened before we even got together Which explains why I have these feelings and thoughts. I hate them :(  I 'm so needy...